Sunday, December 27, 2009

Country Music and Contemplation

This beautiful horse looks almost just like mine, he lives at the ranch I volunteered at right before meeting my husband. We go visit a few times a year.

I was talking to my hubs a few weeks ago as we were listening to the radio, and decided to inform him of something he quite honestly already knew. This might come as a shock to you, to some good and others bad, but I am a country girl at heart. Put me in a barn and I am a happy camper, or out riding a horse I don't even mind mucking the stalls. However, I haven't much had the opportunity to do any of these things since marrying him. It isn't his fault, we just had our miracle boy immediately and pregnant on horseback freaked hubs out a bit. Then I was busy being a mommy and my horse lives a few miles down the road. When things were shaping up to make some time to get out and visit my oversized dog (aka Ponderosa, my horse) I am pregnant with itty bitty- my little miracle girl. I wouldn't trade my children for the world, much less my horse though. I do miss it, the freedom of it. God and I have a special connection when I am outside gardening or on my horse.

As this upcoming year starts I know that it brings with it many new challenges a lot of frustration and a lot of joy. I am trying to get back into my bible reading (I am a total slacker on this count) so that I can focus on the joys and not the frustrations. I will be sharing the journey right here with you too.

I don't know yet if I have mentioned to you our dreams of the future. Hubs and I want to start a ministry that does several things, but the one closest and dearest to my heart is that of an orphanage in Uruguay. I see the children in my dreams. For me, if I dream about it then it is deep down inside my soul. Dreams are special, and God absolutely uses them. Now don't get me wrong, it isn't every night that I have these amazing God dreams, but it does happen, and they are world rocking!

When we think of this huge dream we know that God has given us, sometimes we have a very hard time with the patience issue. Right as we were fully realizing this dream He has buried so deep in our hearts we took the Dave Ramsey Financial Freedom class. This changed our financial lives. With very few exceptions we have taken on no additional debt and are slowly digging out of the hole we were in. This is such a contrary to American way, but freedom is within reach! We felt like before we could seriously start raising funds to move to Uruguay and open an orphanage we would need to be close to out of debt. Our conviction is that to present our lives with the utmost of integrity it needs to be shown that we aren't raising funds to cover bad decisions of our own. Also, we want to show that we aren't doing something on a whim, but have a carefully laid out plan, and rely fully on God.

Hubs played the Carrie Underwood song "Temporary Home" for me tonight (we ended up HAVING to buy it off of iTunes!) because it is so incredibly perfect for the children we already love and many have not even been conceived yet! This song is heartbreaking, and has such dual meaning for those of us who love God! Here are the lyrics for you:

Little boy, 6 years old
A little too used to bein' alone
Another new mom and dad,another school
Another house that'll never be home
When people ask him how he likes this place
He looks up and says with a smile upon his face
"This is my temporary home
It's not where I belong
Windows and rooms that I'm passin' through
This is just a stop, on the way to where I'm going
I'm not afraid because I know this is my
Temporary Home."
Young mom on her own
She needs a little help got nowhere to go
She's lookin' for a job, lookin' for a way out
Because a half-way house will never be a home
At night she whispers to her baby girl
Someday we'll find a place here in this world
"This is our temporary home
It's not where we belong
Windows and rooms that we're passin' through
This is just a stop, on the way to where we're going
I'm not afraid because I know this is our
Temporary Home."
Old man, hospital bed
The room is filled with people he loves
And he whispers don't cry for me
I'll see you all someday
He looks up and says "I can see God's face"
"This is my temporary Home
It's not where I belong
Windows and rooms that I'm passin' through
This was just a stop,on the way To where I'm going
I'm not afraid because I know this was
My temporary home."
This is our temporary home

As a christian this IS our temporary home. It doesn't mean that we can't enjoy it, but ultimately this isn't what life is about. CS Lewis has one of the greatest quotes. He says "If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world". I love it!!!

Here is the video of the song. God Bless! M

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